Nicknames: Rainiy, Uberhen~ :3 Many variations on "Lauren" that I'd rather not share~ x3;
Age: >.> 16. And 7 months. x3;
Eye Color: Hazel~
Hair Color: Currently? :3 Black~ :3
Favourite Color(s): All colors~
Favourite Food: Strawberry Pocky, Ramen, California Roll sushi~ :3
Favourite Animal: All animals~ Mostly zebras and giraffes and elephants and whales and lions and tigers and exciting, exotic animals~ Omg porcupines~
Favourite Book: "The Birth of the Firebringer" and "The Last Unicorn"~
Favourite Movie: Kiki's Delivery Service? :3
Favourite Band/Singer: Tori Amos, Miyavi~ :3
Favourite Number: 3, 7, 13, 21~ :3
Favourite Season: Summer~
Favourite Drink: Diet Cherry Vanilla Dr. Pepper~
Favourite Passtimes: Drawing, writing, singing, chatting, reading, daydreaming, bouncing, sleeping, playing with kitties, playing with friends, watching movies -- oh scary movies~! :3 -- riding on roller coasters -- oh adrenaline rushes! -- looking at pretty art, rambling, and listening to music~
Favourite Thing to Say: "Ne," "mou," "oki doki~"
Favourite Emoticons: :3 x3 ^___^
How Long Have You Been Drawing?: Um... Wellllll~ :3 Technically since elementary school~ x3 I didn't pick up an anime-ish style until about 5th grade (6 years ago~) and I only developed it for a couple of years before I went on massive hiatus~ x3; *falls over* I sort of got inspired upon moving to Washington, and have been drawing pretty consistently since six months ago ne~ :3 *bounce*
P.S. :3 Yeah~ x3; I stole this from Mika~ :3 *giggle* My profile was feeling naked though and I wasn't feeling creative enough to do something else! xD Gomen~ :3
Thoughts x3 God I post, like, EVERY day mouff x3posted Aug 12th 2007, 7:36PM
Mood: Cheerful
Music: Terra Naomi
Heee x3 I'm going to a job interview in an hour and a half x3 I cleaned myself up real well, but I sort of just feel like one of those little nine-year-olds who dress up in Mom's clothes LOL! x3 I can't complain :3 I actually like the feeling. I'm reminded that I'm still a kid x3 I still have time, I still have hope, I HAVE LIFE RAWR!
It's easy to forget x3 The world seems to be getting a bit complicated :3
Anyway x3 I was worried because I only recently started a job somewhere else, and applying for another job feels just a bit like a sort of betrayal or something lol x3 The majority of the people I work with are really awesome people -- I can even take spending four or five or six hours pacing parking lots and pushing carts. x3 My feet are invincible now! It was mostly just the stress of it all. The place I work requires that you join a Union, and all the paperwork and fees and deadlines and everything was just driving me to tears. Also, a portion of my income is being drained by health insurance and a tax I shouldn't be paying because I'm still a minor and I don't earn enough money in a year to meet the requirement LOL! x3 It's a bit grating. x3 I sort of really want this job, though it'll be hard for me to face my supervisors and my dad -- who works at the same place, and he was pretty excited about me working there too. x3;;
I spread the word to Tetsu, who's been job hunting too I'll be real excited if we work in the same place :3 I was worried that with a job and school and everything, it would be hard to meet up at all since he's already graduated and is getting on with life and stuuf ^__^
I sound life I've already gotten the job. >.> I dunno xD I'm really hopeful, especially since it's a new location (not even completely built) at the mall, so they're interviewing anybody with an application at this point!
I think people discredit me a lot because I got hired by my mom for my first job a couple years ago, and my dad works for the company that hired me this time x3; I guess maybe that had something to do with it, since he was in a position to put in a good word with my boss, but I really feel like >.> I got through the interview and the training with flying colors and I passed the drug test and got on my supervisors' good side and everything x3 I suppose it will be a moral booster if I get this job though! x3 Then I might have some proof that I can get a job all on my own! ;3
Anyway :3 I've been thinking a lot about life lately x3 And it's pretty good :3
My mom and I have been on really bad terms for a REALLY long time. I think it had to do with her own depression and unhappiness and self esteem -- as well as character flaws like pride and stubborness. As it were, we were both in more or less the same place (I wouldn't map out all her flaws unless I shared them to a point x3; ), except that she had kids to take it out on. I was never really on the same level as her -- Music has been my escape since forever xD I was more aloof than anything, and I didn't really think about how happy or unhappy I was. I didn't think that I didn't have close friends because I'd been hurt so many times, and in the summer spending my afternoons at the park on a swing sounded many times more appealing. *shrugs* I dunno why I'm letting this out in the open, but yah xD; Things are getting a bit better. We only have real arguments once or twice a week, and only screaming ones about once a month LOL xD;; She's joined some sort of group for people who want to make their lives better and stuff, and she loves it a lot It's made her a bit more tolerating and stuff, though we still don't see eye-to-eye about some things.
She's still a strong advocate for compu curfew, waking up early, no phone conversations past nine (LOL yah right >.>; ), and not going out to see friends before ten in the morning. x3;; She's giving me more space though, so it's a bit nice. I don't think we'll ever have a really close relationship like when I was a kid and adored her, again, but we can laugh together again. She really likes this Japanese rock star I love to death xD I was really excited :3 Most people only hear the bad things about my mother, mostly because I only break down and let on about my family life when I'm upset and she hurts me a lot, but she's okay, now. She's really nosy sometimes, and strict, and she embarrasses me in some ways I really don't like x3;, but she's better.
I gave a friend advice the other day, and I'm not sure if she took it to heart, but it seemed that saying it out loud made me realize how I needed the same thing! >.> I tend to give her a lot of advice I could use myself xD; I told her that all you can do is be the person you are, and become the best you can be, and if people dislike you for it it's their loss and you hafta be confident that you're doing your best and just let it go.
I've been hanging on to things, I really just need to cut loose xD For the last time, WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN WILL HAPPEN :3 If somebody doesn't like me, I don't want to change to suit them. I want to be the best version of me I can be and hope it sways them xD Or else move on and live :3 I'm hopeful again because I believe that I was a frightened version of myself a while ago, and now I just want to take things in stride and have a helluva life x3
I don't need to be with somebody all day or in constant contact or have a wonderful conversation every time x3 It's more important to just feel special with whatever you're given :3 I don't want a high stress, high tension, high paranoia, painful-at-small-things relationship. x3 I want to have fun, and laugh, and be happy. :3
If I get a chance ever, that's what I want the most ^__^
I guess part of being close to somebody is not needing to be the center of attention all the time, because you can trust that you're important, even if it's not being declared to the world 100% of the time. x3 And it's enjoying the sound of somebody's voice just because it's the best sound ever, and loving to see somebody's smile because it's the best feeling in the world, and it's wanting to be physically close without suffocating somebody, and it's liking cute, fun, silly, lovey things without balancing your world on it. x3 It's funny how people form you :3 I've learned more about who I want to be from somebody, and I might have blown my chances with her xD;; But at least I've learned from my mistakes~ x3
Those are my thoughts :3 *bounce* x3 I have so many thoughts >.> I dunno why I make them news every time xD;
... It's probably because I want somebody to know what I'm thinking, without the stress of a sort of confrontation xDDD I dunno how it's going over, but hopefully it's okay xD;;
It does feel really weird dumping on this journal all the time though xD; Internet is kinda scary >.> "HERE are my deepest, most honest thoughts x3 Anybody with Internet access and a measure of morbid curiosity may read!" Lol
On the other hand, I really do sort of want the world to know >.>
OMG I'M HAPPY I'M HAPPY LIFE IS GOOD MOUUUUUUUU! ^__^
Hehe -- I purged my compu of the majority of my writing~ It was all really old and crappy~ x3 I could probably put up Simplicity -- when I feel un-lazy again~ x3 *giggle* ^__^
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Mostly zebras and giraffes and elephants and whales and lions and tigers and exciting, exotic animals~ 
It's made her a bit more tolerating and stuff, though we still don't see eye-to-eye about some things.
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